Half Way Mark

I can't believe I'm 5 months pregnant already! According to my cool iPhone app, I'm 56% done with 124 more days to go! Woo hoo! It still completely amazes me that there is a BABY in there. Not a little blob that will one day grown into a baby. No, there is a full on BABY in there. Arms, legs, head the whole bit. Incredible!

I'm feeling amazing, happy, healthy and excited about what's to come. You know what? It feels damn good to say "excited" instead of "unsure" or "nervous" or "have no clue." For the longest time, I felt like I was never going to get out of that space. It seemed like I was stuck in molasses or quick sand, with no end in sight. But I really feel that things are starting to fall into place and for the first time in a long time, I can actually take a deep breath and exhale. Make no mistake, there are still a ton of unknowns, not sures and no clues. But I feel better prepared to handle them now.

Through my incredible, beautiful, wonderful family and friends, from really being forced to dig deep and after countless boxes of Kleenex...I have gotten through the roughest 4 months of my life. I'm still in one piece. And dare I say stronger for it?

Are things perfect? No. Are there still a lot of variables to balance? Yes. Is the future still somewhat scary and unknown? Absolutely. Do I feel ready to take it all on with a open arms? You bet your ass I do:)