rant

Not happy right now. I want out. Sick of being in the same room all day every day. Sick of looking at the same stupid picture of boats. Sick of not feeling a breeze. Sick of not being able to help out. I want to be home pricing my crap for the garage sale that Rob has to have by himself. I want to be at Church tonight celebrating Greek Orthodox Easter. I want to drive my car. I want to make dinner. I want to go out to dinner. I want to eat dinner anywhere but in this mechanical bed off a plastic tray. I want to put on pants. I want to play with my dogs. I want to fall asleep and wake up next to the man I love. I want to go to a movie and eat popcorn from the tub. I want to give my Dad a big hug and watch a movie on lifetime with him and Lexi and my Mom. I want to go out with Lanie and feel optimistic. I want to run errands with Rob and laugh my ass off. Yes, I know it's a lot of wants, and I'm being a spoiled baby right now. I don't care. I'm frustrated and sad and trapped and stuck. I want the tears to stop but they won't. But I have to protect the cub. That's my job. So here we go. Day five....