Today was a day of pain and loss for our family. Our sweet princess Bella passed away. She had an on going heart condition that finally took it's toll on her little body. We're all glad she is finally at peace now, but it's still so hard to believe that she's gone.
Bella touched all of us in different ways. She knew how to be there for us, even though we all needed something different. I know that sounds crazy, but it's true. For me, she got me through the toughest months of my life. When I was pregnant, I moved in with my Mom and Dad and it was a time filled with turmoil. Rob was living in Phoenix, most of my friends had bailed on me, I was going through a divorce and trying to short sale my home all at the same time. I was feeling alone and scared and hopeless and devastated by everything. My hormones were in over drive and I honestly felt like I could die from sadness. But when I would come home from work, Bella would curl up with me on the couch or my bed and fill a little bit of that hole that was in my heart. She would nuzzle her head against me and let me hold her close. She never pulled away when my tears would drip all over her. She'd just lay there with me, making sure I felt a connection with her because I was slipping and needed something to anchor me.
It sounds crazy, I know. How could I be that emotionally distraught and how could a dog provide that much comfort? But I promise you that she was a big part of keeping my head above water during that time in my life. That was Bella. She was an amazing puppy and my heart hurts so badly knowing that she's gone. I feel like a part of us is missing and I don't know how to fix it.
Rest in peace sweet Bella, we love you and miss you so much xoxo
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