Sweet Life

I'm finding it tough to make time to update my blog. It's not that I'm not thinking of you, I am...I think of all the things I want to tell you, how BIG Domi is getting, what's new in my life. But before I know it the day is over and I'm crawling into bed. I hope you don't feel like I'm neglecting you because I'm not. I feel bad. I wish there was a way to transcribe my thoughts straight onto this blog. Maybe one day?

Right now I'm cooking dinner and uploading photos to my picasa website from my birthday. Oh man, I had SUCH an awesome time! It felt great to get out there with all my peeps and dance, drink, chat, be carefree. It was one of those rare nights where you don't really plan anything and it suddenly becomes epic.

The turn out was great, lots of peeps came to celebrate my big day and have some fun. I got to party it up with my best friend, Lanie....it had been forever...I believe the last time was her birthday last October. It was just what I needed though. She's one of those people that you ALWAYS have a good time with!!! For my birthday, Rob got me the most kick ass HD camera and I love it so much. The photos come out crystal clear and it weighs next to nothing! Lanie baked me my favorite cake, red velvet, and it said "happy birthday homeskillet" on it! I will post all the photos soon and will give you the link.


So now I'm 34 years old. How do I feel? I feel like I have grown up a bit. I feel young still, not yet cringing at my age. If you would have asked me at my last birthday where I would be in a year, I would never have guessed I'd be here. In a new relationship, with a 2 month old son. I'd never believe you if you told me certain people wouldn't be in my life anymore. I'd tell you that you were lying if you said that people I thought would be there through everything are no longer...that they jumped ship at the first rumble of change.

But, hey, life is what you make it. Everything in my world is different now, but not in a bad way. I'm deeply in love with a man that makes me happy, swoon, laugh, strive for more. I look at him from across the room and feel smitten. He's sexy and smart and funny. When we're out and about and he reaches for my hand, I feel proud to be his girl. Being in his arms is a place I can let go and exhale. He's got my back and I've got his. Hand in hand, us against the world. I see him with our son and and sometimes can't believe he's ours...we did that, we made this perfect little human being. He came from love and will always be surrounded by love.


I have a gorgeous little baby boy who I fall more and more in love with every day. He makes me feel things I never thought were possible. I see him changing right before my eyes and its amazing. He's already wanting to sit up and stand and does so with our help.

He loves to look around and all the new things in the world. Can you imagine seeing everything for the first time? He looks at me with his bright eyes and it seems he knows I'm his Momma. He fusses in his crib but as soon as I pick him up, he snuggles up on my chest, lets out a little sigh and drifts off to sleep. I hold him in my arms as he sleeps and just stare in amazement. I stroke his punk rock hair and kiss his tiny fingers that are wrapped around mine. I melt when he smiles back at me and think he's little cough is the most adorable thing on the planet. I want to burst with happiness when I see him and his Daddy together, chillin on the couch watching tv, or cuddling in bed in the morning. He knows that's his Daddy and he's so in love with him. It feels like he already hangs on his every word and wants nothing more than to make him proud.

I have the most incredible family. We are all closer than close, we all love to hang out together, we all love and respect each other. To have parents and siblings like mine is something I wish everyone could experience because it's the greatest feeling in the world.

They have always been there for me, through all the different fun and exciting times I have put them through. I've always done my own thing, whats in my heart...never afraid to go against the grain and shake things up. That can be tough to deal with over time, but they have never let me down. They have always made me feel that they are proud of me and my path...they have never asked me to be someone I'm not and that is the greatest gift of all.

I have my homegirl Lanie, who has kept my head above water since we were in the 7th grade and she's still doing it today. Without her I'm not sure I would have made it to 34 in one piece.
She has never wavered on our friendship in 20 plus years, and I know I can always count on her to be there for me, to listen, to advise, to wipe away my tears and give me brand new hope for a new day.
I have no doubt in my mind that we will be friends until the end of time, because we have faced trials and tribulations, ups and downs, good times and bad. And through it all we have stuck by each other. I am a better person because of her.

She has been my saving grace more times than I can count. She always finds a way to put things in perspective and totally gets me like no one else does. We have bizarre conversations that to us seem totally normal but to others leave them scratching their heads. She is my sister, my homeslice, my best friend.

So at 34 years old, I can safely say that life is good. Who knows what tomorrow will bring...hopefully more good stuff. Here's to another year!